镜子里的我

镜子里的我
不是我

看着镜子里的我
那张脸孔
虚伪的外壳
保护着
内心的沉寂

无声的呼吸
夜的风
泪干了
小丑的笑
淌着血的心
黑暗的夜空
是点点的星
陪伴着那无助的情

残酷的旅程
无知的伴
心在感受着
世界
现实的眼
是虚伪
只是错过了

秋的叶
风的咆哮
自由的风筝
飘扬着
只是没了方向
被牵着的线
回到了原点

过去的痛
是孔
无底的洞
记忆里的影子
是清晰
是模糊
那是回不去的从前

天气预报
烈日的阳
离开的背影
眼前的我
是无情的雨
夺走了幸福
雨后的彩虹
是走向天堂的桥

帆
无际的海洋
指南针
该往哪里走
无忧无虑
只是暴风雨的前夕
毁了梦的开始

时针逆向转
黎明的夕阳
傍晚的日出
夏的雪
冬的阳
历史的记载
若可以改变

镜子里的我
不是我

LEARNING

Learning...we are learning everyday
In many area, consciously or unconsciously
I'm learning to forget something
Something unwillingly...something around me
Try to get off the uncertainty... try to live in my way
I'm learning to live happily...without any trouble
I'm learning to conquer the suck in life...get the freedom
I'm learning to accept the facts...no matter how hard is it
I'm learning to behave properly...as a girl
I'm learning to respect...make people feel comfortable with my way
I'm learning to control the heart...don't be too emotional
I'm learning to be simple...not complicated
Learning...the direction of life...

WAITING FOR YESTERDAY

Many people asked me...what's mean with waiting for yesterday? Actually just a thinking...waiting for something that wouldn't come true. Thats the reality in life. We always wait for nothing. Although we might know that what we wish will never be what we hold. Thats the fact. Maybe we need some times to accommodate. Maybe we should change our mind. Maybe just let the time be the way to where shall we go. All about heart. Thinking is where our heart belong to. How we think, will reflect as how we feel. Maybe you will think that why so stupid? Why waiting for something that not belong to you? Thats the problem. Emotion is very hard to be controlled. Then there is a dream. Hope that one day then everything become the part of your life. Because of dream...our life become more interesting. Because of dream...we can proceed our life in such a wonderful way. Because our heart always full of dreams...

FINALLY

Finally finished my 1st year life here! The moment that I waiting for...but not as expected. Nevermind la...everything is over. Har...one year already? Wow...damn fast. Still fresh here. Think back....really can't remember what I had done for the past year. Still in memory, the 1st day when I step in USM ENGINEERING CAMPUS...new place, new study,new friends.... everything is strange for me. Thought that I can't accommodate with such conditions. For me at least, fear to accept new things...fear with alien. However, actually not such bad as I think. Everything is fine here. Friends...study...I can achieve it. So nice...know a lot of new friends. Make me a support here since I not really enjoy campus life. Already familiar with the life here. Should be...still 3 years to stay in this campus...with my lovely friends and books...haha. 3 years...like so long. Not really actually...will tick away unconsciously. Hope that time can stop here...just here. So relax...no stress...what I can observe now is pretty things. How a beautiful world....!! Dream can la...reality where got such thing want...haha. But dreaming also one of the way to get out of the stupid in reality...not bad...should dream more...2 months wouldn't be here lo. Erm...is good for me? Or what? Homing...sure good. But still haven't plan how to pass this 2 months free life. Working...lazy? Touring...go where? Really no idea. Just let time be the guide to where should I heading to. Don't want think too much. Just empty my mind...at least for this moment. My friends here...will miss you all. 2 months...just like a flash...keep in touch ya...

COMPLICATED

What's the feeling now? Don't know...just complicated can explain what actually i feel now. Something inside....something willingly or unwillingly,cant differentiate anymore. I want to shout out my thinking,but no words...I want to state clearly what actually inside it, but nothing.Like got something,but nothing.Hope that somebody come across and tell me what am I need to do now. Lost the direction, lost in mind...lost everything. Empty...

与苍蝇有个约会

讨厌的家伙
请远离我

苍蝇啊苍蝇
明知道自己碍眼
为何还要出现在我眼前

苍蝇啊苍蝇
明知道不受欢迎
为何还要不请自来

苍蝇啊苍蝇
明知道自己肮脏
为何还要靠近我

苍蝇啊苍蝇
明知道我很忙
为何还要来打扰

苍蝇啊苍蝇
为何这么多地方不去
偏偏要来usm

哭了

因为在意
我哭了

因为心痛
我哭了

因为自责
我哭了

因为压力
我哭了

因为想念
我哭了

因为担心
我哭了

因为忽略
我哭了

因为伤害
我哭了

因为感觉
我哭了

我哭了...