LEARNING

Learning...we are learning everyday
In many area, consciously or unconsciously
I'm learning to forget something
Something unwillingly...something around me
Try to get off the uncertainty... try to live in my way
I'm learning to live happily...without any trouble
I'm learning to conquer the suck in life...get the freedom
I'm learning to accept the facts...no matter how hard is it
I'm learning to behave properly...as a girl
I'm learning to respect...make people feel comfortable with my way
I'm learning to control the heart...don't be too emotional
I'm learning to be simple...not complicated
Learning...the direction of life...

WAITING FOR YESTERDAY

Many people asked me...what's mean with waiting for yesterday? Actually just a thinking...waiting for something that wouldn't come true. Thats the reality in life. We always wait for nothing. Although we might know that what we wish will never be what we hold. Thats the fact. Maybe we need some times to accommodate. Maybe we should change our mind. Maybe just let the time be the way to where shall we go. All about heart. Thinking is where our heart belong to. How we think, will reflect as how we feel. Maybe you will think that why so stupid? Why waiting for something that not belong to you? Thats the problem. Emotion is very hard to be controlled. Then there is a dream. Hope that one day then everything become the part of your life. Because of dream...our life become more interesting. Because of dream...we can proceed our life in such a wonderful way. Because our heart always full of dreams...

FINALLY

Finally finished my 1st year life here! The moment that I waiting for...but not as expected. Nevermind la...everything is over. Har...one year already? Wow...damn fast. Still fresh here. Think back....really can't remember what I had done for the past year. Still in memory, the 1st day when I step in USM ENGINEERING CAMPUS...new place, new study,new friends.... everything is strange for me. Thought that I can't accommodate with such conditions. For me at least, fear to accept new things...fear with alien. However, actually not such bad as I think. Everything is fine here. Friends...study...I can achieve it. So nice...know a lot of new friends. Make me a support here since I not really enjoy campus life. Already familiar with the life here. Should be...still 3 years to stay in this campus...with my lovely friends and books...haha. 3 years...like so long. Not really actually...will tick away unconsciously. Hope that time can stop here...just here. So relax...no stress...what I can observe now is pretty things. How a beautiful world....!! Dream can la...reality where got such thing want...haha. But dreaming also one of the way to get out of the stupid in reality...not bad...should dream more...2 months wouldn't be here lo. Erm...is good for me? Or what? Homing...sure good. But still haven't plan how to pass this 2 months free life. Working...lazy? Touring...go where? Really no idea. Just let time be the guide to where should I heading to. Don't want think too much. Just empty my mind...at least for this moment. My friends here...will miss you all. 2 months...just like a flash...keep in touch ya...

COMPLICATED

What's the feeling now? Don't know...just complicated can explain what actually i feel now. Something inside....something willingly or unwillingly,cant differentiate anymore. I want to shout out my thinking,but no words...I want to state clearly what actually inside it, but nothing.Like got something,but nothing.Hope that somebody come across and tell me what am I need to do now. Lost the direction, lost in mind...lost everything. Empty...