与苍蝇有个约会

讨厌的家伙
请远离我

苍蝇啊苍蝇
明知道自己碍眼
为何还要出现在我眼前

苍蝇啊苍蝇
明知道不受欢迎
为何还要不请自来

苍蝇啊苍蝇
明知道自己肮脏
为何还要靠近我

苍蝇啊苍蝇
明知道我很忙
为何还要来打扰

苍蝇啊苍蝇
为何这么多地方不去
偏偏要来usm

哭了

因为在意
我哭了

因为心痛
我哭了

因为自责
我哭了

因为压力
我哭了

因为想念
我哭了

因为担心
我哭了

因为忽略
我哭了

因为伤害
我哭了

因为感觉
我哭了

我哭了...

JUST FOR YOU

Recently dream of you
Suddenly think of your face
Your past
I never forget
Still remember the moment with you
When I always be around you
Like a shadow
Follow you
Wherever you go
Still remember your fierce
Blame me when I stir up your anger
But I know
I know you are care about me
You don't know how to express it
You have the heart
I know
When you are side of me
I never appreciate your good
I never treat you in concern way
I never...
Always make you angry
Always said something that hurt you
Always ...
But you never care about it
Still be there
Side of me
I felt so sorry
Please forgive my rudeness
Please forgive me
But I know everything is late
You wouldn't be around me anymore
I don't know where are you now
I don't know what are you doing now
I never know
Nobody know
Still remember 5 years ago
When you leave me
I know one day then you will leave me
But I don't know why such a sudden
You didn't tell me anything
I know you also not willingly to leave me
But no choice
Regret for everything that i had been done for you
Too late
Time is over
Wouldn't reverse
If god give me a chance
I hope you will know
That I love you so much
I never tell you
Not because I don't
Just I keep it in heart
I hope you can hear it
I love you

也许

最近想多了，开始累了，不想了，因为真的累了...心开始感觉了，一切变了，变得不一样了。没有了方向，就好像没有了自己，开始觉得一切都不以为然。每个人心里都有一个红绿灯。该停就停，该前进就前进。生活就在你的掌控中，一切都是理所当然。只是时机不对，被控制的心乱，担心着，不想的，真的累了。想着想着，矛盾了，挣扎了，也许并不是这样。不想冲动，因为害怕受伤。不想争取，因为那并不是我想要的。不想勉强，因为被逼的感觉并不好受。不想做决定，因为害怕后悔。也许这样就好，也许该停了，也许并不是这么糟，也许想太多了，只是不想接受。

也许没有想
只是心累了

也许没什么
只是错觉

也许该接受
只是期待着

也许没有人理解
只是不想改变

JOKE...not just a JOKE-2

When you are seriously with someone, but he/she say:"Haha...just kidding!" At that moment, you can't do anything. At last just keep everything inside...inside your heart. Don't show everything on your face, but express in different way. When someone make a joke, but over the level set...the people involve might angry and no more excuse there. Then he/she say:"hey, this a joke. Kidding around only." This is definitely same with a murderer kill the people. Afterwards, just say:" sorry, I shouldn't murder you."However, everything happen already. Cannot go back to the initial point. Just as a needle, with its head and tail. When the joke just a joke, its like the head of needle, wouldn't hurt. Just feel nothing. But when the joke not just a joke, then the hurt in heart will be forever. Never meet its end point. I like joking with people. Feel so sorry if people don't agree with my joke way. Just a joke. Don't take it in serious way.

JOKE...not just a JOKE

Joke...bring the happiness to the people surrounding. When a joke not just a joke...then the stressing begin. Joke have its limitation. Don't ever over the limit. If so...then the joke will make something different. The victim don't mind, is because it is just a joke. When uncomfortable condition growing...the joke not just a pure joke. Something seriously happen. Don't make the same joke over a long long time. Everything has its due date. Same with joke. Joke is good...but when side effect come across...negatively...what should be done? Make a joke wisely. Think first before do. Haha...don't be too serious...

Suddenly

What I want in life actually? This question suddently bear in my mind. Yup...what I want? Each people surrouding may think ... you are smart and clever. Wow...please la...not that I want. Not that I think. What I express just honestly from my heart...not fake want. I just a normal want. I just hope that everyone around me be honest...just don't pretend in front of me. I just want true surrouding. Maybe I'm weak in communication. I don't know how to be a good talker. So most of the time better be silent. Is it too quiet? I just keep everything in my heart. Haha. Well...someone said I'm so secretive. I admit. I just don't know how to express my feeling well. Actually I'm very simple...just not as complicated as you think. Protective...just fear to get hurt. Maybe too sensitive with peolple around...maybe sometimes think too much...maybe trouble there...maybe is time to change...how to get myself up? Everyone have their own problem...you will know the solution better...just you don't know how to apply it. You know what you want actually...just you don't know how to achieve it. Maybe think and do is 2 different things. We know...just hard to take action. Is it?