他们都说

他们都说我很坚强...

面对没兴趣的事物，是责任克服了负担，说服那沉重的憎恨。也许只是伪装着那百般的不愿，选择了就没有后悔的理由。总是埋怨着当初错的决定，只想提醒，从前的从前，惩罚自我的矛盾。心在挣扎，向左走向右走，杂乱的思绪，眼泪留下了痕迹...

他们并不知道，泪水划过的天空，是彩虹一路向北走。崎岖不堪的道路，是困难的开始。跌倒后的伤口，总期待时间是最好的解药。当毫无目的地前进，错了还是得继续时，糊涂地走着走着。麻醉了，后退着，迷失自我。放弃不是我想要的，勉强不是我想要的，忘了怎么说我很坚强...

没有人知道，没有人理解，没有人相信...

THE MISS THAT HAD BEEN FORGOTTEN

When the time remind me to the miss...

Almost a month been in campus and didn't met my family. I thought there is time when I can adapt the separation with my family. I thought I enjoy my campus life. But I'm totally wrong. Raya break just around the corner. I wonder why I have to wait for one more day before heading to my sweet sweet home. The miss start to grow up greater and greater. Picturing in my mind. I lose to myself.

Last time when i went back to my hometown because of H1N1, there is a feeling drag me back to campus. I miss campus?! Maybe but just when there is a freedom activate my cell. I wanna run away from the troubles. I wanna throw away the headache. I wanna hittin the wall...clarify the way...

I still remember you deep in my heart. I never forget the way when you talk to me. Every act of you hardly printed on the screen. There is no time to sweep away. My dearest family...I just forgot since when we are never gather together completely. Pahang...Kuala Lumpur...Singapore...Penang...We are just far far apart from each other. We are busying with our own stuff. We are following the progress in life.When the calling try to get back to the starting point, I know nothing is changing. Surrounding is developing when my
world still be the same.

I never forget the past, present and even the future. Waiting for the moment as the first time when i saw you....

ANSWERS

I wish to stay in my own world
With nobody cares
When I can feel the fresh air around
Lost in my mind
You never know

I wish to forget the memories
Leaving the past behind
With no hurts
Flying to the future
You never know

I wish to know the answers
When the question marks fill my mind
Everything in hand
Clear away the fog glass
You never know

I wish to get the direction
To my home
The bird singing in the sky
Freedom is the enemy
You never know

I wish to find the solutions
Troubles around
Choosing the best way
If I could hold my promise
You never know

I wish to fill the empty space
Full with hope
Bring the happiness in life
Breathless with the miracle
You never know

I wish to adapt the changing
In difficulty
Everything is unreal
Thinking all the wrong way
You never know

I wish to tell the truth
Word by word
Sentence by sentence
Feeling never lie
You never know

I wish to drown in dreams
When everything is so beautiful
God guide my way
Life is once
You never know

If there is snowing in the summer....

I'm Busy> I'm Away> I'm Not Around

Can I just stay away?
Do you know where should I stay?

Can I just forget about it?
Do you know what inside it?

Can I know why?
Do you willing to tell me the answer?

Can I just do what I want?
Do you know what I want?

Can I just get over it?
Do you know the best way?

Can I just fill in the blank?
Do you know how to fill?

Can I just leave it forever?
Do you sense the changing?

Can I express it in proper way?
Do you know the feeling?

Can I know the mind structure?
Do you think about it?

I'm thinking of if I'm busy I'm away I'm not around...

ANOTHER DAY

Looking through the eyes
It's never a lie
I'm speaking
But it's voice of someone else
Try to convince that everything is true
I am gonna run away
Around the corner
Searching the footprint that lost

Twinkling stars smiling at the sky
Tell me the road are everywhere
Dreary forsaken sea
Wave dancing the steps
Tell me wonderful world are just in sight
Cherish the imperfection
Something remain
Tell me the truth is cruel

Crying my way home
Take away my fear
Deep inside
Wishing everything is alright
Tears drive my thinking
Ropes to the end
Waiting for the day comes
You never know
The time is short

COUNTING 1 2 3

The sun is shining my back
Outside the window
Morning sing
Reminding my mind from dream
The dream just a dream
Come to the life where I am staying now

Fresh air fill my body
Everything is new
Feeling my heart beat
Is still dreaming
Picture flashing with shadow
Is still live in the past
I am not growing

Counting 1 2 3
Life is just simple
What so complicated
Suffer the spirit over
Get the better way
To the heaven with angel

Be with you
The moment that never gone
When smiling and laughing fill the space
Puzzle memories
Sense goes right or wrong
Feeling gonna be pain

Dream can be complicated
Life can be simple
Nothing so trouble
The phrase never goes true
Hidden in the darkness
Leave me alone with no worries
With world only you and me

Counting 1 2 3
Life is just simple
What so complicated
Suffer the spirit over
Get the better way
To the heaven with angel