NEVER SAY NEVER

Never say never
When you never try
Purchase every single chance
With your sincerity
You never know
A shining star is waiting for you

Never say never
When your world fall into dark
The lights in hand never gone
If you can make it works
It's your heart blinding the eyes
If you tearing it into pieces

Never say never
When you miss a thing
If you are catching my mind
I am gonna make you smile
Drowning in the bubbles that I blow for you
Tell me what color do you see

Please if you can choose
Never say never

十字路口

现实终究存在 逃避是借口
十字路口的我 该何去何从
时间在催促 是否提醒着
弥漫的雾里 即使看不透
仓促的决定 草草了事

呐喊心中的不适 怜惜昔日的情怀
或许停留 遥遥无期的抉择
眉间的线条 紧紧地思索着
十字路口的尽头 只要勇敢地前进一步

十字路口 不过是这样
放弃了抉择 选择了命运
至少空白是美好的 无限的伸展
前进了就没有退路 当一切还在十字路口中

THANKS FOR THE MEMORY

A simple thanks
Not enough to express
The smile in heart
Unable to convey

Let the path guide the way
Something inside
My strong feeling tell everything
None a single word to stand for

Tell me if I am not good enough
Just an innocent act
If I have insult the purpose
If I have break the expectations

My days become so beautiful
Wonderful and nice that I never dream of
Because of you
My friends

Wanna share with you
I don't even know if it's worth for you
If I have another day
Believe me that I will make it different

1711~
When I am on the ship
1811~
When waiting for the end of the earth

WHAT LIFE IS THE LIFE

You bring me up
You bring me down
Never disappear from my sight
I wish to abandon you
But I couldn't
I wish to appreciate you
But no way got to the way

I wonder what's your secret
Such power to grow
We have joy and we have fun
Sometimes you are just naughty
Make me laugh and make me cry
Complicated don't know why
I hope I could know

You are such loyal
I just could say yes to you
You mean nothing to the crowd
You mean something to me
Set me free
I can stay with you
When you just give me lives

THE ROAD NOT TAKEN

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be a traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing by
Had worn them just about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

By Robert Frost

THE FIRST TIME WHEN I FALL IN LOVE

Oh, my dear…

Someday I met you from somewhere

And everything made the difference

You changed my life

From the dull to the bright

When the first time you walk in my life

Still remember the first time when I saw you

You are such lovely and cute

Impression hardly printed in my mind

I wish to know you more

And tell you that you catch my sight

My eyes couldn’t leave from the path you stay

You told me everything about yourself

Wishing that we could be close

As sweet as a couple that I never had

Perhaps is time to let you know

I couldn’t live without you

I shall telling this with a sigh

The more we stay side by side

The more you tell me what I wish to

Sorry I couldn’t remember all

And the breath fog up the glass

I couldn’t see you clearly

My world lost the directions

I start to cry

I start to beg

Finding the angel to heal me

You told me

Fear and disappointed are not the way

You promised me that you will save me from the hell

I have a trust in you

I believe with every single word of you

Hoping that you still with me till the end

When you exist in my life

Forgive my rudeness on you

I will change to the better way

Stay in my heart

Let me feel your spirit

Frequency interfere

The first time when I fall in love

对与错

分不清
什么是对
什么是错

所谓的定义都是人造的
没有命中注定
没有自然而然
我说对就是对
我说错就是错
是这样吗

茫然寻找着借口
期望从错中领悟
开发观点
为正确奋斗
也许没有界限
只是一字之差

争辩着
满足了
无法为过错低头
知道了
承认了
盼望无言胜自尊

埋怨着冲动的错
自责无知的论点
纠正于平衡点上
醒悟自觉的过失
刀锋一样的词
我错了

对与错
真的那么重要吗

想

我想

若我是男生
就不会有女生的烦恼

我想

若我是女生
就不会有男生的烦恼

我想

若我不是人类
就不会有烦恼？

JUST TOO MUCH JUST NOT ENOUGH

There's a time when I sing along
Jump over the sea
Staring through the crowd
I lost my mind
Strong feeling make me dumb
None a single word to express
Teasing make the sense
You are wrong
Just too much

There's a time when I look around
Running through the path
Catching every single picture
I wish to tell
Nobody stand by me
It's a poison in hand
Something pull inside
Something push me out
Just not enough

It's a beginning
Till the end

世界多美好

栖息于阴暗的角落
只觉得牵扯着的伤口
开始发炎
不管了 放手了
希望减轻那丝丝的痛

人为何会心痛
原来结束了
可是那浓浓的感觉在回味
也许不需要

醒不了
张开惺忪的睡眼
看看这世界
渺小的是自我
无际的是世界

一直低头走着
眼里是我的步伐
抬起头 望望天
云在飞翔
原来世界多美好

原点

风在呼啸
仿佛提醒着
远方缠绵的思念
停留在原点
等待回来的那一刻

烙印的是忘不了
隐隐约约
脸上单纯的微笑
脑海漂浮在原点
编制着零碎的故事

还记得
泥巴里赤裸的十指
是小时候的味道
忘了什么是烦恼
回到了原点

冰冷的氧气
透过烫热的身躯
回回荡荡
刺痛了 忍受着
期待我们的原点

地球自转公转
分针秒针宁静的竞赛
生活的起起落落
错了
就无法再重来

寻找当初那甜甜的原点...

动力

若燃油能给我动力
若燃烧着的是我的热忱

夜的宁静再次唤醒了沉睡的我
尝试沉醉在那柔软的草丛中
望着高挂在夜空的明月
圆圆的月
金黄色的轮廓
照亮了大地
也照亮了我的心

探测着是无法释怀的解
开始松了
慢慢地攀爬进黑暗中
无奈的叹气声
急促地呻吟着
为空虚的夜晚哀悼

眼里满满的文字
双唇无力地抖动
耳里倾听着响亮的心声
脑子一片空白
可惜
无从的安慰
琅琅上口

站在原处
一步一步消失在眼前
手指一点一滴
数着轻盈的沙尘
爱上了夜的景
增添了生活写照
不期待黎明的降临
毁了艳丽动人的今晚

害怕
漫无目的的脚步声
穿梭在人群中
失去了自由
是我
捆绑着双手
是我
放弃了自由

若简单就是动力
若一切从现在开始

他们都说

他们都说我很坚强...

面对没兴趣的事物，是责任克服了负担，说服那沉重的憎恨。也许只是伪装着那百般的不愿，选择了就没有后悔的理由。总是埋怨着当初错的决定，只想提醒，从前的从前，惩罚自我的矛盾。心在挣扎，向左走向右走，杂乱的思绪，眼泪留下了痕迹...

他们并不知道，泪水划过的天空，是彩虹一路向北走。崎岖不堪的道路，是困难的开始。跌倒后的伤口，总期待时间是最好的解药。当毫无目的地前进，错了还是得继续时，糊涂地走着走着。麻醉了，后退着，迷失自我。放弃不是我想要的，勉强不是我想要的，忘了怎么说我很坚强...

没有人知道，没有人理解，没有人相信...

THE MISS THAT HAD BEEN FORGOTTEN

When the time remind me to the miss...

Almost a month been in campus and didn't met my family. I thought there is time when I can adapt the separation with my family. I thought I enjoy my campus life. But I'm totally wrong. Raya break just around the corner. I wonder why I have to wait for one more day before heading to my sweet sweet home. The miss start to grow up greater and greater. Picturing in my mind. I lose to myself.

Last time when i went back to my hometown because of H1N1, there is a feeling drag me back to campus. I miss campus?! Maybe but just when there is a freedom activate my cell. I wanna run away from the troubles. I wanna throw away the headache. I wanna hittin the wall...clarify the way...

I still remember you deep in my heart. I never forget the way when you talk to me. Every act of you hardly printed on the screen. There is no time to sweep away. My dearest family...I just forgot since when we are never gather together completely. Pahang...Kuala Lumpur...Singapore...Penang...We are just far far apart from each other. We are busying with our own stuff. We are following the progress in life.When the calling try to get back to the starting point, I know nothing is changing. Surrounding is developing when my
world still be the same.

I never forget the past, present and even the future. Waiting for the moment as the first time when i saw you....

ANSWERS

I wish to stay in my own world
With nobody cares
When I can feel the fresh air around
Lost in my mind
You never know

I wish to forget the memories
Leaving the past behind
With no hurts
Flying to the future
You never know

I wish to know the answers
When the question marks fill my mind
Everything in hand
Clear away the fog glass
You never know

I wish to get the direction
To my home
The bird singing in the sky
Freedom is the enemy
You never know

I wish to find the solutions
Troubles around
Choosing the best way
If I could hold my promise
You never know

I wish to fill the empty space
Full with hope
Bring the happiness in life
Breathless with the miracle
You never know

I wish to adapt the changing
In difficulty
Everything is unreal
Thinking all the wrong way
You never know

I wish to tell the truth
Word by word
Sentence by sentence
Feeling never lie
You never know

I wish to drown in dreams
When everything is so beautiful
God guide my way
Life is once
You never know

If there is snowing in the summer....

I'm Busy> I'm Away> I'm Not Around

Can I just stay away?
Do you know where should I stay?

Can I just forget about it?
Do you know what inside it?

Can I know why?
Do you willing to tell me the answer?

Can I just do what I want?
Do you know what I want?

Can I just get over it?
Do you know the best way?

Can I just fill in the blank?
Do you know how to fill?

Can I just leave it forever?
Do you sense the changing?

Can I express it in proper way?
Do you know the feeling?

Can I know the mind structure?
Do you think about it?

I'm thinking of if I'm busy I'm away I'm not around...

ANOTHER DAY

Looking through the eyes
It's never a lie
I'm speaking
But it's voice of someone else
Try to convince that everything is true
I am gonna run away
Around the corner
Searching the footprint that lost

Twinkling stars smiling at the sky
Tell me the road are everywhere
Dreary forsaken sea
Wave dancing the steps
Tell me wonderful world are just in sight
Cherish the imperfection
Something remain
Tell me the truth is cruel

Crying my way home
Take away my fear
Deep inside
Wishing everything is alright
Tears drive my thinking
Ropes to the end
Waiting for the day comes
You never know
The time is short

COUNTING 1 2 3

The sun is shining my back
Outside the window
Morning sing
Reminding my mind from dream
The dream just a dream
Come to the life where I am staying now

Fresh air fill my body
Everything is new
Feeling my heart beat
Is still dreaming
Picture flashing with shadow
Is still live in the past
I am not growing

Counting 1 2 3
Life is just simple
What so complicated
Suffer the spirit over
Get the better way
To the heaven with angel

Be with you
The moment that never gone
When smiling and laughing fill the space
Puzzle memories
Sense goes right or wrong
Feeling gonna be pain

Dream can be complicated
Life can be simple
Nothing so trouble
The phrase never goes true
Hidden in the darkness
Leave me alone with no worries
With world only you and me

Counting 1 2 3
Life is just simple
What so complicated
Suffer the spirit over
Get the better way
To the heaven with angel

当初

当初的我们已经不在了，现在的陌生已经无法以言语形容。 回到过去的童年，那是一段忘不了的情，改变了我人生的道路。原本的我根本不应该在这儿，是那曙光，引导了迷失方向的我。

还历历在目的是当初的相遇，联系着那茫然的心。茫茫人海中，相遇是缘分，相识是命中注定。也许是玩弄的心把彼此毫不相干的感觉融入了，选择了接受，相处不过是这样。打打闹闹的日子已不再，怀念着每一刻的相处，原来那是最美好的。分享每一分每一秒，是我不会珍惜，是我放弃了记忆。时间前进着，改变了一切，我们的心也变了。

曾经尝试拉近心的距离，曾经为一切的一切努力，是环境的阻止，失败了。原来地球并不大，只是彼此的空间在不停地扩张，生活圈不再是你我他。记忆开始模糊，难道就这样继续下去吗？不懂的是隐藏着的心，开始腐化。

原来世上的事物都有距离，原来联系着的情都有空洞的时候，原来猜疑不是解决的方法，原来我们还是可以回到从前...

Moody

I'm feeling not well. Suddenly...so stress to get such feeling. I'm trying not to cry. I'm trying to share the feeling. But I can't even do so. Is it still in holiday mood? Not get ready yet? I don't know...try hard to find a reason. Just stay alone and think deeply. I found that something is gone. Or maybe can't state as gone. It just goes to an end. Maybe is good for me. It is not the first time to get such feeling...but second time. I know is second time. Since when...when to start...when to end....that not what I care for. But it is not important anymore. I knew is my fault. What to do....then just keep it. Try not to think too much. Everything will just goes to its initial point. Nothing is so mean in life. I knew it. That's because I not dare to step on it. Disappointed is a simple word. But once disappointed...the heart is breaking. I can hear the sound from my heart. But I can't express it well...

GONE

While the world keep changing...I still be the same. Still the one who can't ever proceed through its way. Just can't even do a little more than which people called ability. We should act due to our ability. This is the old phase. Is it really so? When there is a feeling tell you...you can't do it....just give up. Maybe the heart still making wish. Just find out maybe its not true. But I strongly believe that each fact happen when we are not realize how is it happen. Naturally...only the reason I can give. At that moment, we able to heal the condition. I'm trying my best now. But still not work at all. Hard to hand over it. Just stay away...keep a distance....The feeling is gone. I don't know how to get it back. Or I never own it? Live in a complete fog life. I don't know why. When asking can I.....I hope the answer is...yes I do. Show me the smile...means I get it. No response....then burns me up. Let the past be the past. Everything is new for me now. I'm feeling strange. I'm feeling fresh. Start with another new life. Something gone. Nothing will just stop and waiting for you....

一个人

一个人的日子，也许是孤单。

发现了原来一个人的空间是自由的，有限的快乐，有限的悲伤，有限的想法，有限的承担，有限的烦恼，有限的约束，至少一切都是有限的。喜欢上了一个人的日子，原来不过是这样...

天下之大，想要找一处完全属于自己的空洞，发觉那只不过是幻想的一种层次。也许只有在梦中，觅寻着自我的痕迹，才发现走过的路，不止一双脚印，原来一路上的我都有人陪伴着。是朋友是敌人，迷惘了...分享着生活的点滴。

曾经听过的一个人旅行，离开那熟悉的环境，到远方的角落，环绕着的是陌生。无人知晓的我，好像到了一个不属于自己的世界，是新生活...还是一种挑战...很想就这样抛开现实的缠绕，是梦的开始，只是缺乏了勇气，无法为自己那可怜的自尊铺一道理想的桥梁。就是那无法实现的梦想，鼓励着存在的意义。

想过无法面对的是世界丑陋的一面，其实无法面对的是自己。没有永远到达不了的天堂，只是没有踏出地狱的信心。不是不能，只是不想。在实践每一个不可能时，在乎的并非力量的根源，只是追根究底的都是我一个人的事。在竞争中，总想着茁壮地冲出每一道墙，为胜利喝彩，看透失败。承受结果的心，该改变还是该接受，也许自己的思绪也无法辩解内心深处的筋。不了解的是我，不同的是因，不想的是果。只是又有谁可以毫无保留地敞开胸怀，为过去，为现在，为将来，为一切的一切说不呢...

选择了一个人的日子，没有负担，没有猜疑，没有伤害，没有...选择了一个回不到的过去，曾经以为被了解了，也许根本不想去想，不是我放弃了，只是原来都是误会。以为是真正地开始，其实是结束的时候。成长的过程，忽略了并不表示不存在，只是藏匿在某处。是天时地利人和，是要在乎的时候...

夜的秘密

那是个寂寞的夜晚。尽管紧闭着双眼，可那忐忑的心，好像失了魂似的。倾听着窗外的嘀嗒声，是雨...轻轻地打在窗沿上。带着那沉重的脚步，走在湿漉漉的街道。手里的伞，颤抖着，是风...是寒...也许只是...望着地上向前倾的影子，那是路灯站着的位子。影子...是灯光的照射，发现了它的踪影。黑暗中，它存在，只是隐藏着。是它，永远的伙伴，有着离不开的理由。欢乐或悲伤，孤独的我其实并不孤独。或许是夜的宁静，或许是空虚的心，那迎面的秋风，显得特别寒冷。湖畔前，站着一个熟悉的背影。是梦里的她，还记得那薰衣草的味道，是随风飘扬的长发，扑鼻而来。是这忘不了的味道，领导着我，走向这没尽头的路。茫茫的雾气，模糊了。也许这是一场梦，但有着这样的决心，不期望醒来的那一刻。活在充满谎言的世界，逃离那弥漫着浓浓的仇。欺骗，是美丽的误会，思绪的缠绕，那是虚幻无实所带来的感觉。缓慢地步行，紧靠着，是躯体。可那两颗心的距离，好似两旁的景象，越离越远。后悔了，后悔没珍惜那个拥抱着幸福的当初。混乱了，混乱那糟透无知的童话，那是不可能到达的极端。破晓的日出，那是唯一的记忆，是结束...是开始...眼前的红球，悄悄地升起，是温的。望着离去的影子，心是昨夜的呼喊，刺痛那忘不了的夜。等待昨夜的到来，等待夜的秘密...

镜子里的我

镜子里的我
不是我

看着镜子里的我
那张脸孔
虚伪的外壳
保护着
内心的沉寂

无声的呼吸
夜的风
泪干了
小丑的笑
淌着血的心
黑暗的夜空
是点点的星
陪伴着那无助的情

残酷的旅程
无知的伴
心在感受着
世界
现实的眼
是虚伪
只是错过了

秋的叶
风的咆哮
自由的风筝
飘扬着
只是没了方向
被牵着的线
回到了原点

过去的痛
是孔
无底的洞
记忆里的影子
是清晰
是模糊
那是回不去的从前

天气预报
烈日的阳
离开的背影
眼前的我
是无情的雨
夺走了幸福
雨后的彩虹
是走向天堂的桥

帆
无际的海洋
指南针
该往哪里走
无忧无虑
只是暴风雨的前夕
毁了梦的开始

时针逆向转
黎明的夕阳
傍晚的日出
夏的雪
冬的阳
历史的记载
若可以改变

镜子里的我
不是我

LEARNING

Learning...we are learning everyday
In many area, consciously or unconsciously
I'm learning to forget something
Something unwillingly...something around me
Try to get off the uncertainty... try to live in my way
I'm learning to live happily...without any trouble
I'm learning to conquer the suck in life...get the freedom
I'm learning to accept the facts...no matter how hard is it
I'm learning to behave properly...as a girl
I'm learning to respect...make people feel comfortable with my way
I'm learning to control the heart...don't be too emotional
I'm learning to be simple...not complicated
Learning...the direction of life...

WAITING FOR YESTERDAY

Many people asked me...what's mean with waiting for yesterday? Actually just a thinking...waiting for something that wouldn't come true. Thats the reality in life. We always wait for nothing. Although we might know that what we wish will never be what we hold. Thats the fact. Maybe we need some times to accommodate. Maybe we should change our mind. Maybe just let the time be the way to where shall we go. All about heart. Thinking is where our heart belong to. How we think, will reflect as how we feel. Maybe you will think that why so stupid? Why waiting for something that not belong to you? Thats the problem. Emotion is very hard to be controlled. Then there is a dream. Hope that one day then everything become the part of your life. Because of dream...our life become more interesting. Because of dream...we can proceed our life in such a wonderful way. Because our heart always full of dreams...

FINALLY

Finally finished my 1st year life here! The moment that I waiting for...but not as expected. Nevermind la...everything is over. Har...one year already? Wow...damn fast. Still fresh here. Think back....really can't remember what I had done for the past year. Still in memory, the 1st day when I step in USM ENGINEERING CAMPUS...new place, new study,new friends.... everything is strange for me. Thought that I can't accommodate with such conditions. For me at least, fear to accept new things...fear with alien. However, actually not such bad as I think. Everything is fine here. Friends...study...I can achieve it. So nice...know a lot of new friends. Make me a support here since I not really enjoy campus life. Already familiar with the life here. Should be...still 3 years to stay in this campus...with my lovely friends and books...haha. 3 years...like so long. Not really actually...will tick away unconsciously. Hope that time can stop here...just here. So relax...no stress...what I can observe now is pretty things. How a beautiful world....!! Dream can la...reality where got such thing want...haha. But dreaming also one of the way to get out of the stupid in reality...not bad...should dream more...2 months wouldn't be here lo. Erm...is good for me? Or what? Homing...sure good. But still haven't plan how to pass this 2 months free life. Working...lazy? Touring...go where? Really no idea. Just let time be the guide to where should I heading to. Don't want think too much. Just empty my mind...at least for this moment. My friends here...will miss you all. 2 months...just like a flash...keep in touch ya...

COMPLICATED

What's the feeling now? Don't know...just complicated can explain what actually i feel now. Something inside....something willingly or unwillingly,cant differentiate anymore. I want to shout out my thinking,but no words...I want to state clearly what actually inside it, but nothing.Like got something,but nothing.Hope that somebody come across and tell me what am I need to do now. Lost the direction, lost in mind...lost everything. Empty...

与苍蝇有个约会

讨厌的家伙
请远离我

苍蝇啊苍蝇
明知道自己碍眼
为何还要出现在我眼前

苍蝇啊苍蝇
明知道不受欢迎
为何还要不请自来

苍蝇啊苍蝇
明知道自己肮脏
为何还要靠近我

苍蝇啊苍蝇
明知道我很忙
为何还要来打扰

苍蝇啊苍蝇
为何这么多地方不去
偏偏要来usm

哭了

因为在意
我哭了

因为心痛
我哭了

因为自责
我哭了

因为压力
我哭了

因为想念
我哭了

因为担心
我哭了

因为忽略
我哭了

因为伤害
我哭了

因为感觉
我哭了

我哭了...

JUST FOR YOU

Recently dream of you
Suddenly think of your face
Your past
I never forget
Still remember the moment with you
When I always be around you
Like a shadow
Follow you
Wherever you go
Still remember your fierce
Blame me when I stir up your anger
But I know
I know you are care about me
You don't know how to express it
You have the heart
I know
When you are side of me
I never appreciate your good
I never treat you in concern way
I never...
Always make you angry
Always said something that hurt you
Always ...
But you never care about it
Still be there
Side of me
I felt so sorry
Please forgive my rudeness
Please forgive me
But I know everything is late
You wouldn't be around me anymore
I don't know where are you now
I don't know what are you doing now
I never know
Nobody know
Still remember 5 years ago
When you leave me
I know one day then you will leave me
But I don't know why such a sudden
You didn't tell me anything
I know you also not willingly to leave me
But no choice
Regret for everything that i had been done for you
Too late
Time is over
Wouldn't reverse
If god give me a chance
I hope you will know
That I love you so much
I never tell you
Not because I don't
Just I keep it in heart
I hope you can hear it
I love you

也许

最近想多了，开始累了，不想了，因为真的累了...心开始感觉了，一切变了，变得不一样了。没有了方向，就好像没有了自己，开始觉得一切都不以为然。每个人心里都有一个红绿灯。该停就停，该前进就前进。生活就在你的掌控中，一切都是理所当然。只是时机不对，被控制的心乱，担心着，不想的，真的累了。想着想着，矛盾了，挣扎了，也许并不是这样。不想冲动，因为害怕受伤。不想争取，因为那并不是我想要的。不想勉强，因为被逼的感觉并不好受。不想做决定，因为害怕后悔。也许这样就好，也许该停了，也许并不是这么糟，也许想太多了，只是不想接受。

也许没有想
只是心累了

也许没什么
只是错觉

也许该接受
只是期待着

也许没有人理解
只是不想改变

JOKE...not just a JOKE-2

When you are seriously with someone, but he/she say:"Haha...just kidding!" At that moment, you can't do anything. At last just keep everything inside...inside your heart. Don't show everything on your face, but express in different way. When someone make a joke, but over the level set...the people involve might angry and no more excuse there. Then he/she say:"hey, this a joke. Kidding around only." This is definitely same with a murderer kill the people. Afterwards, just say:" sorry, I shouldn't murder you."However, everything happen already. Cannot go back to the initial point. Just as a needle, with its head and tail. When the joke just a joke, its like the head of needle, wouldn't hurt. Just feel nothing. But when the joke not just a joke, then the hurt in heart will be forever. Never meet its end point. I like joking with people. Feel so sorry if people don't agree with my joke way. Just a joke. Don't take it in serious way.

JOKE...not just a JOKE

Joke...bring the happiness to the people surrounding. When a joke not just a joke...then the stressing begin. Joke have its limitation. Don't ever over the limit. If so...then the joke will make something different. The victim don't mind, is because it is just a joke. When uncomfortable condition growing...the joke not just a pure joke. Something seriously happen. Don't make the same joke over a long long time. Everything has its due date. Same with joke. Joke is good...but when side effect come across...negatively...what should be done? Make a joke wisely. Think first before do. Haha...don't be too serious...

Suddenly

What I want in life actually? This question suddently bear in my mind. Yup...what I want? Each people surrouding may think ... you are smart and clever. Wow...please la...not that I want. Not that I think. What I express just honestly from my heart...not fake want. I just a normal want. I just hope that everyone around me be honest...just don't pretend in front of me. I just want true surrouding. Maybe I'm weak in communication. I don't know how to be a good talker. So most of the time better be silent. Is it too quiet? I just keep everything in my heart. Haha. Well...someone said I'm so secretive. I admit. I just don't know how to express my feeling well. Actually I'm very simple...just not as complicated as you think. Protective...just fear to get hurt. Maybe too sensitive with peolple around...maybe sometimes think too much...maybe trouble there...maybe is time to change...how to get myself up? Everyone have their own problem...you will know the solution better...just you don't know how to apply it. You know what you want actually...just you don't know how to achieve it. Maybe think and do is 2 different things. We know...just hard to take action. Is it?

BAD MOOD

Recently, in bad mood. Just can said I also don't know why. Maybe so tired...got a lot of things to do. Annual Life Concert by Little Grass just came to an end. Yup...finally finished! Busying with such work, for me...still ok. At least better than study...test...This week...just slept for at most 5-6 hours a day. Wow...crazy! Others may think that this girl totally made of iron. Yup...maybe, haha. Then busy with wus 101. That really brought me in trouble.Wednesday, due date for sending our assignment...profail usahawan. When sending the profail usahawan, my file shown 7.56Mb. But then the requirement just allow 1.5Mb.Try to delete some photos...then 4Mb. What to do? I need to on duty for ANNUAL LIFE CONCERT. Then asking around for help. Finally...settled. Stupid wus...only difficulty us. This few days, something around me. My thinking, I can't control it, but still try my best to avoid it. I know something impossible, something wouldn't happen. When it come across, I know is time already. When everyting came to an limitation, what should I do? I prefer to treat it as my own problem. I don't like to let them know, I don't like such pity words. Because I am I. Maybe try to think simply, everything will be fine soon. Yaya, i hope one day then...no more complicated things. Everything just as we want...

FEELING

What kind of feel? I never know...Many things,many words...I want to express.But when time comes,everything get ready,finally...mean nothing. What happen to me? Please pay more attention, please don't think too much ,please accept it,please look forward,please....already late. I don't know what i want. I don't know is it right or wrong. I don't know what actually in my mind. I don't know...don't understand...don't want such life...really not what I want. My real thinking, my real words...nobody would understand. So terrible, what happen to me? Maybe just let everything go through their way, although not really my dream one. Everyone seems good, have their own life,their own dream,their own thinking. They always know what they should do, what they should be.But I can't. Is my own problem. How a complicated feeling...hope that someone can tell me, tell me what should i do, tell me the right way.When time growing, many things need to be considered. Look around, different surrounding, different thinking, different way,different feeling...everything different.Is it just a simple life? Is it too much thinking? Is it still need some time? Still at t-junction, which road should i heading to? Maybe one day then, I will know...